Thursday, April 30, 2009

1 litre of tears~

The title is 1 litre of tear...but it made me shed my tears not only a litre, but a river~!!
huhu...a very very very sad japanese movie...
I watched it few months back, but till now I can still feel da sadness... :'(

I alwez try to put myself into Aya's situation, but ohhh
yaya, u might say its juz a movie, but diz is not an ordinary movie, its a splendid real movie, adapted from a real life story...
Aya is an intelligent-smart-cute-active-all rounder student who suddenly discovers dat she is having a degenerative brain disease dat has no cure n will take away all of her senses n talents one by one, n it would progress slowly until she wont b able to walk, talk n finally her life will come to a FULL STOP. The thing is, it takes about 10 years b4 one dies, n during dat tyme lots of difficult situations will have to be faced...

Living for death.
Counting days to close her eyes n sleep, not to wake up anymore.
Watching other ppl struggling for a bright future, when she knows that she wont even have a future.
Looking at her parents' smiles which might be the last smiles she can ever witness.
Keep writing even when her hands are painful enough to write a single letter.
Cry...cry....n cry...till there r no more tears to shed..

What in the world is more hurting n killing ur soul other den dat??? T_T

So i would say,
Everyone should watch diz movie n learn to appreciate our lives...
We might be happy n proud wif what we have today...
We can walk, we can talk, we can laugh n we can scream all da way we want...
But all that are temporary n we might not be able to do them tomorrow, r even the next second...
Always be grateful, live life to the fullest, n do what we should do, right now!

My life is like a flower thats hasn’t bloomed yet. From the start of the youth, I want to treasure it and have no regrets.

I really don’t want to say things such as ”I want to go back to how things were before.” I recognize how I am right now, and I will continue to live on.

I had a dream…and in it I was running freely and I was walking…But I had another dream…and in it I was in a wheelchair…I thought I had accepted me for who I am now…

If you look up at the sky after falling down the blue sky is also today stretching limitlessly and smiles at me… I’m alive.

People shouldn’t dwell on the past. It’s enough to try your best in all you’re doing now.

What’s wrong with falling down? As long as I stand up again.

Zutto Ikite ; live on forever


K- Only Human

On the opposite coast of sadness

is something called a smile

On the opposite coast of sadness
is something called a smile
But before we can go there,
is there something we’re waiting for?

In order to chase our dreams, we can’t have a reason to run away
We’ve got to go, to that far away summer’s day

If we find it tomorrow, we can’t sigh
Because like a boat that opposes the stream
we have to walk straight on

In a place worn down by sadness
something called a miracle, is waiting
Yet we are still searching
for the sunflower that grows at the end of spring

The warrior who awaits the morning light
before he can clasp it with red nails, his tears glitter and fall

Even if we’ve grown used to loneliness
only relying on the light of the moon
We have to fly away with featherless wing
just go foward, just a little further

As the rainclouds break
the wet streets sparkling
Although it brings only darkness
A powerful, powerful light
helps push us to walk on


Monday, April 27, 2009

Try n try~

Life is like a newborn baby struggling to come out of its mother's womb,
life is a struggle true enough, but after all the struggling you have done,

and after all the hell you have been through, there is success.
Life is nothing but a big struggle, but just keep the faith and focus on your goals.

Don't let life beat you or you will be walking around like zombies.
Keep on pushing, keep on trying, life can be whatever you make it to be.

But life can also be a bowl of cherries with whip cream and apple pie.
I say this again; life is what you make of it.

You can achieve or conquer anything it throws at you,
you can't quit or give up, you have got to keep on working,

look higher some way, some how you are going to make it.

How to Stay Positive when You Know Your Life Sucks

Put away your violin.
People who go around saying that life sucks are really just attention grabbers looking for pity. Yes, life can be difficult and cruel and unfair, but every time you're about to start whining again, consider how fortunate you really are and what you DO have. As written in the book "Escape Life Sucks Syndrome" show me the person who complains about not having name brand sneakers or designer shoes and I'll show you the person with no feet! Every day above ground really is a good day. So stop feeling sorry for yourself, and take one step forward. Then another. Then another. Then another.

Ground Yourself. The most common reason for people thinking their lives suck is because they aren't living their own lives. Look deeply into how you are acting to please others- to please family, friends, and society. Realize, that you need to get to know who you are, what your needs are, and make the choices to follow your path. To know these things, a path of meditation and inner exploration is invaluable. What sucks is that you are not taking care of yourself.

Look on the inside. What are some qualities you have that you like about yourself? Are you funny? Are you intelligent? Are you sincere? Are you generous? What do you have pride in? Try focusing on the positive things in your life. You may be making huge influences to others even when you think you're useless.

Prove those negative thoughts wrong. When you find yourself in a bad mood, you could think of the negative things such as, "I'm dumb and annoying", "I'm better off dead", "I'm ugly, I wish I looked different", etc. Even though it's not true. Change your mind. Look for your good features, think about the ones that you know love you, look on your greater side. Realize that nobody's life is easy and that there will always be ups and downs, and moments of low self esteem. Don't automatically assume that nobody cares. Every person matters to someone. You're alive for a reason.

Appreciate what you see. Look in the mirror. Find some beautiful things about yourself.... Do you have nice skin? nice nails? beautiful eyes? full lips? Find stuff that appeals to you. When you can't change something, change your attitude towards it!

It's all how you look at it.
Jealous of the people with 'amazing' lives? They chose to be that way! Everyone has the same opportunities, remember, there are people living in mansions who are miserable and people living on the street who are perfectly happy. It's all on how you look at it.

Determine why your life sucks. What can you do to make your life better? What do you desire to do? How do you want to feel? Make a few reachable goals and your own strategies. The first step is usually the hardest - getting help or admitting you need it.

Getting motivated. What motivates you? What gives you energy to go on everyday? Music? Love? Family? A 1km run? Allah? Your attitude? Your pet? Friends?
School? Boost your confidence and determination by encouraging yourself into thinking positive.

Remember that some things can pass with time. There will be a tomorrow. There will be a next week. There will be a next month and perhaps by then, things will change. Everything is going to be okay when you think it's going to be all right. You are in control of your life and though it might get worse, it'll get better eventually. It's temporary and it will change much sooner than you think.

Think about happy memories. Whenever you feel like the future is 'hopeless', think about vivid memories. It will help make you feel better and that in the future, there will be good things, too. Happiness would not exist without sadness - it's like the yin and yang. They just don't exist without each other. Think about all the things you want to experience, feel, achieve. There will be many great moments in your life - don't let a few obstacles get in the way.

Don't stop yourself from feeling the joy. It's okay to step back once in awhile and just enjoy the moment. Even in tough situations - it's important to smile and laugh here and there. Don't restrict yourself from doing things you love just because you think you'll be criticized to do. Don't just leave memories behind, but don't try to live in the past, either. Let yourself enjoy life even if you're not at the best place you could be. You only live once - make the best of it.

Develop a gratitude journal. It's pretty simple. At the end of every day, write down five things that have made you happy or appreciative that day -- not necessarily big things, even small ones count. For example: nice weather, being praised by my boss for getting an urgent errand done, my playful dog, kids and hubby kissing me goodbye before they went to school/work, a hilarious joke a mate shared, etc.

If you feel persistently sad, unmotivated, anxious, hopeless or fearful, seek professional help. You may be suffering from a mood disorder or nutritional deficit which could be contributing to your situation. Remember there is always somebody there who wants to help you. You are valuable!

Bila poket makin kering~

huhu...smlm ak g amek ic kt Mas Alam..
after so long jd minah indon xbwk ic g mane2, finally dpt balik kerakyatan tuuuuu.. :D
hopefully pisang xberbuah dua kali, xnak da ilang purse sbb its so tragic dat u hve to walk thousands of miles utk pegi buat sume balik, ic~lesen~atm card~mtrx card etc2~

Pastu smpai je kt Mas Alam, naek tingkt 6, den amek la ic tuuuu...
heeeee...tkjut sbb qmba di situ tu sgt la tembam *adei kna diet ne :P*
pas da amek tu singgah giant jap nk bli brg, dgn poket yg tnggal rm30..confiden je g shopping..haha
kira pnye kira, RM27.50...okey, tnggal rm2.50 saje dlm poket...weeee~
den g la atm nk draw duit, kna wat baris pnjg2 la plak...adeiiii~
da smpai turn tuuuuu....ALAMAK~mna kad atm ne???

xbwk rupenyeeee~ T_T
adeii pnat je bratur, da la poket tnggal rm2.50 je ne...
nk makan apee?adoi la...

den balik tu g Carltex, atm rosak plak...huhu
da la sume xde kt uma...da balik kg...waaaaa nk pnjm pon xbuleeee...
balik2 tu mampu bli nsik cowboy jew...
pas da bli maka dgn itu poket pon kosong...tngl 5sen je kot...haha
den mlm tu ingat nk ikat prot, tp lapa la plak... ape lagi, korek tabung angkut duit syiling g bli burger...
haha...tkebil2 makcik tu tgk duit syiling bnyk sgt..gagaga~
sabo je la yani :P

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

When I get really mad~

Today ade bio practical test...
n today, i've been cursed...r shud I say i've been blessed???

Ok2, rite after entering the lab...
I was searching 4 a strategic place to comfortably perform my practical test~

Okey, gotcha..The one in da middle..Looks good~
So, pegi la ltak brg kt situ.. *wink* *hepy sbb dpt tmpt besh*

Tom2 dtg sorg hamba Allah ne, ltak brg dia kt situ..
ok fine, maybe dia nk tumpang ltak brg je kot..
Tp tiba2 je dia duduk atas krusi tu...

blink....BLINK....blink.... @_@
trying 2 give her/him a signal rather den yelling 'hey dats my place'~!!
but he/she kept making an innocent face~ *diz person is weird*

ok well, its better 4 me to mengalah instead of blowing winds of hurricane on da beautiful fine day~
So, I rolled my eyes at other places, trying to find an empty seat, if there are any...
Unfortunately, all places were fully occupied~ T_T

Waiting n waiting...
my lecturer showed me a place right beside da window n asked me 2 sit there...

tmpt buat eksperimen ke buat posmoterm mayat tuuu???

the table was soooo exotic, wif all sorts of, green, yellow, purple..u named it, n they have it~woooooooow~
ha...ha...ha....this is soooo cool~
doing an experiment WITH a colourful table n WITHOUT a sink n even a piece of tissue 4 my slide preparation~ *????*
I was totally down at dat moment...
looking n staring at the question paper~ dunno-how-2-do-da-experiment-because-i-didnt-expect-that-will-come-out-so-i-didnt-study-n-it-was-truly-a-disaster-4-me
~ n wutsoever~ :(
n my pen was making another perfect disaster by not letting its ink to come out~ *now I really hate gsoft pens*

Moral of da day

:: Dun get mad r else u'll end up having more n more troubles + everytink will go wrong~

it was R.E.A.L.L.Y... a bad...worse...worst D.A.Y. ever!!

Friday, April 17, 2009

Dedicated to all my purple fwen... :)

Listen to this...
n although the poem is spoken by an Indonesian,
this is truly...deeply...from my heart n soul..

Thanks for being my fwen...
Thanks for always being there when I need..
Im glad dat we can share our joys..our tears together...
Even its been a long time...ouhh how time flies..
But all the moments...remain in my heart..
n it will stay there till I close my eyes n death comes to invite me...
I am really missing all of you...
Eventhough we r already walking on a different path,
I promise that our friendship will stay forever...
Sometimes, when I look through the window,
I see our laughs, I see our grins, n I see our smiles...
n I see u saying, we r best friends till da very end...
THANKS FRIENDS...really missing u guys :)

p/s: tgh tension xm, izinkan sy berjiwang...hehe... :P

Friday, April 3, 2009

Another TAGGED by Syana~ :D

Post a picture from ur picture folder, the 3rd folder and the 3rd picture. Give a brief description.

waaaaa...nice photo aite???Taken during class farewell party kt KFC...:D

List 5 names dat you would tag.

1. Pipah
2. Mira
3. Umai
4. Yone
5. Rudy

Does no. 1 luv no. 2?
Pipah loves Mira???errrr...define the word love 1st~hehe...yeaa rite, love as a fwen of coz laa... :)

Do you think number 2 and 3 would look good together?
Yeppa...Mereka adlh psangan yg sgt romantik...share joys n tears 2gther kalo tgh watch movies..kwa3 :P

What do u think of no. 3?
Very cruel from the outside, but very beautiful from the inside...wawawa..

Would you love no. 4?
I would love yone???ouhhhh never ever...we'll end up being cat n dog most of da time we talk r meet each, better not to love him...LOL

What do u think if 4 and 5 together?
ouhh Im sure Rudy n Yone r not ya??

Do u miss number 5?
ouhh rudy i miss u damned a lot~!!! haha..alamak bule mencetuskan controversy~!!haha...tiap2 ari nmpk muke rudy, xsmpat nk miss pon lorrr..heee

What do u wana say to no. 3 the most?
ouhh no 3 again...yea2 to umai, sorry 4 always hurting u..huhu..ampuun ya~jgn asyik ponteng cluz IELTS jek pasne~ :P

What do u hate abt no.1 d most?
His bro slalu topupkan kedit hp bro???dun ever dream bout it..huhu :(

What do u love most abt no. 2?
Kalo nak makan ckp je...mst die akan follow n tmankan..hehe..n she's a very gud listener n a gud secret keeper~ :D

What arr u listening to now?
Lagu2 Plain White T's frm Big Bad World album...NICE~!!

What is the time now?
6.34 pm

What had u done today?
Woke up at 3 in the morning, den tdo blik, den woke up again at 6, den tdo blik...den bgn2 da pkul 8lbey kalut gle bce bku sbb ade test kimia...mkn nsik grg ikan masin kt D Rempah...tdo 4 almost 3hours after dat...den updating blog...OMG~!! wut a life...hidup yg pnuh dgn lagha~huhu :(

Who was ur last call from and why?
From aunty lily asking me to go to her house this weekend..Cracking ma head to find a gud reason sb sesungguhnya sy xnak pegiiiii...... :(

Who was ur last message from?

What do u think of polygamy?
Kpada lelaki yg nk berpoligami, JGN KAWEN DGN SAYA~!!!!

Faveret fast-food chain?
Big Apple n KFC~yuummmy~

U would die without?
My family~ huk3

U arr a football fan of?
None...Dun like football, alwez wondering y ppl keep shouting when watching football~xde keje :P

Ur faveret perfume?
Aqua Lily from him..heeee

U like guys/girls who smoke?
Sgt plg amat benci skali pada smokers...ur killing urself n other ppl s well...tlg la btaubat~

U ever watch porn?
No. accidentally jela...dats wut i mean k mr spark :P

U drink?

Yes of coZ...third- quarter of human body consists of water...if i dun drink Im not gonna upd8 my blog ni la...sbb dlm kubo xde lptop n line intenet KOT~hehe

Last question woot~! List 5 things u wana do before u die.
1. Get married, have kids.. :D
2. Go around the, ireland, london, germany, italy, korea, aussie, nz,wuuu~ ouhhh sy sgt mahu pergi....Plzzzzzz3 sum1 plzz bring me der...huhu
3. Wat bekalan bnyk2 dlu...tanak msuk neraka waaa panas3..huhu :(
4. Bli merz 4 mak ngn abah..weee~
5. Buy all kinda cute stuffs yg wujud kt dunia ne...wohoho~lurv it~!!! :D


Tagged by Rudy~

:: Housewife (weeeeee~~:D)
:: DJ
:: Jurnalist
:: Businesswoman

:: Tiramisu
:: Armageddon
:: Pearl Harbour
:: 50 1st Date (OMG the hero is sooooo cool~~ :0)


:: Pdg Serai, Kedah
:: Alor Star, Kedah
:: Shah Alam
:: Going to live in India, InsyaAllah :)

:: Bangkok, Thailand
:: Hokkaido, Japan
:: Langkawi Island
:: Cameron Highland (ngidam nk mkn strawberi huk3 :(~ )

:: Friendster
:: My blog
:: Metacafe
:: Motionempire


:: Kari ayam wif betik
:: Sambal ikan bawal
:: Claypots
:: Ketupat~!!!! (really love eating *wink*)

:: Paradise
:: My home sweet home
:: Paris (really wanna go there huhuhu)
:: Egypt~!!! (heeeeee... :D)

:: YOU
:: YOU
:: YOU
:: Yes~!! I mean YOU~!! (sape soh bce so comment cpt lalala :P )

:: Prophet Muhammad
:: Siti Khadijah
:: Izyani in da future hihihi :D
:: Bush (wanna shot him to death huh~)

:: Buying colorful cute stuffs
:: Looking at my mum n dad's face
:: Nyanyi kuat2 smpai nk pcah anak tekak ngeeee~

Thursday, April 2, 2009

Dont be sad= be happy~!!!

:: Yesterday I bought this book at PKNS...

:: The tittle is La Tahzan, which means Dont Be Sad...
:: Its a very good supporting material for those who are in need of some strengths in their lives...
:: Wish I could spend sometimes to khatam this book..
:: Den I wouldnt be sad anymore...I guess~ :D
:: I'll summarise the contents here once I hve finish reading it k..hehe




Im a coin collector now~~
errrr....AM I???hehe...


ME become an owner of a piggy bank????

haha...luckily not an owner of pigs :P

well, diz is my 1st tyme EVER, buying this kind of thingy... too spendthrift till I never keep any of my coins...NOT EVEN a 5 cent coin~!!wuuuuu~
Wish me luck..
I wish I can make my piggy bank occupied with coins not with rubbish of coz, by the end of diz year...hehe ;)


p/s : kene samak x kalo pgang piggy bank?? :P

ur number,,,,, :p