im back~ :)

Akhirnya, stlah cuti yg agak pnjg, aku kmbali ke shah alam =)

wan Alhamdulillah da mkin chat, tp blum sdar spnuhnya.
n still perlukan bntuan pnafasan. InsyaAllah 2 3 ari lg da bole bgn n bcakap. amiin :)
thanks kpd suma yg bg smngt n tlg bca yassin n doa.
smoga Allah memberkati kalian sume :))

so,mcm2 pengalaman n pengajaran yg aku dpt spnjg kt kdah.
yg pasti, smngat aku utk jd doktor yg bjaye smakin bkobar2..
sedey kalo tgk keadaan kt hospital, kite kt luar hepi je, tp rmai org yg tgh tseksa n mderita kt dalam sane.
tmbah plak wan dlm icu, sume org yg dlm tu dlm keadaan kritikal n kronik, tiap2 ari ade je org mninggal.
spnjang aku kt hospital, ade 2org hamba Allah meninggal. dua2 kes h1n1, n mlibatkan pesakit kronik.
dlm emergency pnye unit plak, bratus2 org tgh tunggu giliran, sbb demam btuk2, simptom2 h1n1 la sume.
wabak ne da smakin truk nmpknye, nurse dlm icu tu ckp tiap2 ari ade je org yg sah +ve.
scary kan???

erm dlm icu, aku tgk la cmne doctor sume wat keje. ade sorg doc laki tu, die rawat wan.
dr wan mule2 msuk, die monitor every single pkembangan yg ade la.
so msa ari 1st tu, die ckp wan xde brain coordination. so, diorg takut brain dead sbb b4 dat wan kne stroke agak trok la.
den 2 3 ari pastu, kaki wan da mule gerak2. die hepi sgt2, die ckp kt tok 'maaaakkk ciiiiiiiiiiiiiiiikkk, tgk laaaaa pak cik dah gerakkkk2" dgn hepinye.
comel btol :) itu lah prasaan sorg doc bla tgk pesakit die smakin baik kan.
i cant wait to hve dat kind of feelings tu...hehe :)

n aku blaja satu je yg pntg utk jd doc yg bjaye, kte kna la ikhlas..
bkn sbb duit, bkn sbb nk uma r kete besa, tp btol2 sbb nk tolong org.
sume org kt hospital tu harapkan bntuan kta, so we hve to be very2 serious n wise in every dcision dat we hve to make.
ne soal hidup n mati org. soal nyawa yg mmg kta xbole bli dgn wang ringgit.
dan nk jadi doc, its all about sacrifice.
kalo xnak korbankan masa tdo, msa mkn, msa utk shopping n all dat,
itu bkn doc namenye.
mental n fizikal kne kuat. doc kt c2 jalan pon laju2.
mne ade lenggang2 kangkung.
satu saat tlambat, bnyk nyawa yg bole tgadai.

so for dat, marilah kawan2ku yg tgh wat medic, kta blaja bsungguh2.
ramai org yg tgh menunggu khidmat kta, so kta wat yg tbaek okie.
ikhlaskan diri nk blaja, jgn sentiasa crik kelemahan org.
sbb 1 jari tunjuk kt org, ade 4 lg jari yg tunjuk kt kta.
be +ve, be consistent, be motivated.
insyaAllah kta sume bole :))

p/s bnyk gle mende nk kna cover, after 4ari ponteng cluz...warrrggghhhh :(

(T_T)

God must have a reason for putting me in diz kind of situation.

aku demam, 2ari tlantar atas katil, tdo slama 40 jam bermimpikan result AS.

sok result AS kuar, im juz hoping 4 the bez. smoga budak2 jpa dpt buat 1st record yg baek.

huhu..takot sgt2, tp bnda da lpas kan.

bak kta maya "Dont cry bcoz its over, smile bcoz it happened" =)

n now, my grandpa msuk ICU, suspected lung infection.

n da 2ari xsdarkan diri T_T

siesly ni satu tamparan hebat dlm hidupku.

sbb wan da bsarkan aku dr kecik smpai skang ni.

he's been a great playmate of mine.

n i made so many promises to him.

to t8 cre of him when I bcome a doctor,

buy him lots of shoes so that he's not gonna wear a worn out shoes nemore,

bring him to India for a trip, when im studying there.

Can u wait for me, wan??? T_T

im praying for ur quick recovery okei??

I'll be back to kedah tonite. mum juz told me dat its appropriate to come back now.

as his condition is getting worse.

God, plzz save him for me :(

to ppl out there, diz is not a way for me to escape from classes okei??

im not hepy wif diz.

but i really have to, coz my grandpa is like my soul.

he raised me up, waited for me in front of the school's gate everyday after school,

in his old kain pelikat riding his old motorbikes.

juz to make sure that I learn ABC and 123

i dun need to forget all dat juz bcoz im an A level student aite?

im dying when he's struggling for a life.

coz i really really damn love him.

geddit??????