my new blog~

im writing in a new blog. do follow me okay!

chikoomilkshake.blogspot.com

actually i cant think of a good name for my new blog. since chikoo milk shake is d best juice in india, hentam jela wat link eh..haha..enjoy! :D

manipal oo manipal~

alrite, i really feel like writing now..haha..after about 2months dkt rumah, seriously i lost my writing skills..TP, ada skills lain yg smakin btambah..ahha..skills memasak n mengasuh baby..kui3

sume impian utk keja time cuti terkubur cmtu je..ibarat yg dikejar xdpt, yg dikendong berciciran..lpas je abes a level kt msu, i got an offer to work in kuwait finance, tp xmo sbb nk jgak jd cikgu..bkak je skola, cikgu da rmai so tade tmpat kosong utk ku sumbat diriku..las2 jd suri rumah yg ditugaskan utk memasak n wat keje2 rumah..selain tu, perut smkin membusung sbb smbil msk smbil testing2..rsanya bkn testing2 da, sbb habes je msak dlm kuali lauk tinggal sparuh je..adehh~ selain tu, makcikku bru dpt baby kecik, so sumtimes tu kna la jgak mengasuh2..n dpt tmbah knowledge psal baby, baby kecik kentutnya sgt kuat, tp dun wery xbusuk pon sbb die minum susu je.. :D

dan cuti pon da hampir tamat..Alhamdulillah sume bjalan seperti yg dirancang, xlama lg da nk g india utk futher studies..but honestly im not really happy..sbb my besfren is not going together wif me :( we've shared a lot of memories staying in the same room during a-levels..she's a very good listener, n i really2 trust her..pndek kata,problem ku problem mu jua..chewahh..but its ok, i believe there is a better pathway awaiting, n she will excel in everything she does..who knows we might work in the same place in the future aite?apepun, never give up k fren, my prayer will always be wif u.. :)

so, procedure nk ke india bknlah sesuatu yg mudah..bnyk rintangan yg perlu diredah..huhu...lpas a-levels yg plg mencabar jasmani n nurani kt msu, d next stage is proses medical checkup, buat visa, btn n habeskan duit parents beribu2 utk bli brg and wat payment tu la ni la..injection for hepatitis pon da rm160.. adeh~

time medical checkup tu yg plg besh..selain hbeskan darah utk dijadikan spesimen, doc tu jgak ada bg advice sket..so kwn2 ku yg nk jd doc jgak, ingt psanan ni..from d beginning ni kan, kta da kna set in our mind bidang ape kta nk amek nnt..den time blaja doc tu ckp 'kunyah smpai lumat' ape yg lect aja, n gve full attention on part2 yg kta minat tu..study smpai tmuntah2 pon xpe die ckp..kalo minat tgn, nnt amek tgn mayat den bwk balik bilik n study pon xpe..haha..seram gle kot..sbb den only u'll handle all cases very well bla da keja nnt..insyaAllah sy akan ingt ye doc..kagum dgn smngt dia tu, pulses pon naek dgn mendadaknye..smpai doc tu pon pelik, knape nadi u laju sgt eh??haha..zzzz

n menceritakan pengalaman wat visa 2 3 hri lpas..mula2 smpai dkt high commision india, rsa mcm da smpai kt india sbb tmpt tu mmg pnuh dgn org india..dgn fragrance2 yg sgt menarik, waaa heaven btol la..haha..plg menyayat hati, susa pyah g tmpt tu, naek bas turun bas, naek tren turun tren, jus utk dptkan satu tndatangan dr org kt situ..den kna bwk dokumen2 suma tu kt visa cntre d masjid jamek..n tmbh menyayat hati, org2 yg keja kt situ mmg tade manners langsung..ckp men lpas je, nk tinggi suara kt customer pon ske2 hati je..alkisah, haritu jumpak membe2 la kt visa centre tu..den borg2 tu bole disubmit in group..den dia tnya, u'll collect in group kan?den i said no la sbb mmg pegi pon asing2, n she yelled at me and said, u'll collect separately den submit pon kna separate la..ok fine, kalo xbole pon ckp la molek2 sket kan..how i noe suma procedure2 kt situ..da la its my first time pegi wat visa sniri..xpyh la nk tinggikan suara tu..ok miss?da la lpas tu org call tnya office hour pon nk mara2.. :(

naseb lpas tu dpt pekena laksa penang kt midvalley, hilang sume geram2..haha..so fren, u shud try laksa kt garden cafe dlm jusco kt midvalley..mmg tu laksa yg paling sdap in d world..harap2 kt india nnt ada laksa cmtu jgak..huhu

n kepada kawan2 suma, my flight will be on friday, 12th march, pkul 2155..so d kesempatan ni, nk mintak maaf bnyk2 dr hujung rmbut smpai hujung kaki, kalo ada salah silap kt mna2..mna la taw pegi xkembali kan..n kpd geng2 kedah, jemput mai uma 5 mac ni, ada knuri kecik2 je, utk jumpak kawan2 lama..hehe..so fren, hve a happy day! :D

:)

back to blogging shortly...
stay tune~ :D

nitemare~

huhu..ngeri btol dnga cter accident bas dua tngkt kt Ipoh tu kan..rsa takot nk nek bas da..naseb la da xpyh ulang-alik g shah alam da skang ni..niat nk btenggek kt uma makcik kt kl tpaksa dibatalkan sbb takot da nk naek bas..sob3 :(

hurm tp tu la kan..kalo da ajal, xkra naek bas ka, lori ayam ka, keta beso2 ka, kalo da smpai msa bnda akan jd jgak kan..tua r muda, kaya r miskin, things happen sooo unexpectedly..Tuhan nk uji stakat mna kta redha ngn Qada' n QadarNya.

Tp kepada pemandu bs yg mengntuk time tgh drive bas Sani tu (dgn harapan dia bca blog ak la..haha :P), tlg la peka dgn keadaan anda semasa driving..mslhnya anda mbwa 48 nyawa, bkn sorg2 je..kalo da ngntok tu jgn la nk strong kn diri bwk jgak bas tu..sekuat2 mnsia dia perlu rehat yg ckup, bru la ble fokus..pk sal keselamatan pnumpang jgak..taw?

n to my fwen, ana yg dlm bas tu jgak, mst trauma kan experienced nitemare yg mcm tu..Alhamdulillah ana xcedera sb dia kt tingkat atas bas..n kpd keluarga mangsa2 yang meninggal, smoga sabar hadapi dugaan besar cmni..semoga sume arwah2 ditempatkan di kalangan org2 yg soleh..aminnn~

homestay

launching my family's new project, our new homestay..
hehe..n saya sebagai promoter xbertauliah nk pomotekn kt kwn2 sume..

www.dmelatihomestay.blogspot.com

kalo tingin nk mkn2 angin kt kulim ni bule la menginap kt cni ye..hehe
special discount kpd membe2 sume :P

coming back sooner r later~ :))

i'll be back after my A2 level exam, the very final exam of the year n of my life in MSU. For d time being, i really need to gve full attention to my life agenda, making my way to Manipal. I'll be updating my blog after 17/11, the day when I can smell d fragrance from d heaven (since i'll be freed from MSU's spells :P)
n i'll be writing wif a new breath..hehe :)
i've dcided not to work in KL, but to work in my hometown s a teacher, teaching spastic children. n of coz there'll be lots of stories to tell when I start my first day of being a teacher..tunggu la ye ;)

n to my dear friends in MSU, good luck for A2..
i believe that every 1 can fly, n make our wishes come true..
lets struggle n do our bestest!!! :D

masih merangkak...

Kambing biri2 klon da nk fly g india~
T.T
i pray for ur happiness k dear~
n ur wounds will heal soon, trust me..
always remember dat u deserve a better person :)
nnt kte jumpe kt india k..
gonna miss u like gila2 too~

hmm..mr egypt pon da nk fly balikk..
pasni tade da org nk bwk g jenjalan..
nk mkn roasted chicken manyak2 lg~
sob3 :(

di kala sume org fly, aku masih crawling d cni..
mcari sayap utk fly jugakk~
harap2 dpt ketemu dgn sayap tuuu...
amiiin~

d hari rayaaaaa~ :D

alahai..cuti sminggu da abes daa.. pasni lg sbulan kt cni, pastu :D :D :D ~ tammat la kontrak ngn university 'terbilang'.. :P tp nk abeskan sbulan tu aiyoyoyo sgt lah tough yg xterhingga.. silibus A2 pon lom abes lg----> A2 hanya tinggal sbln cissss... sgtlah xtahu ape2 cmne la nk amek exam ni..aduiyaaiii

TP!!!!!
apa nk buat tyme cuti 3bulan ni telahpun di'plan' dgn rapi..hehe xcited yang amat la katakan..bkn sng nk dpt cuti lma2 neh.. spanjang dkt university of choice ni, cuti sekontot2 je.. tade pon smpai bbulan2.. pndek kata, org cuti kte g cluz, org g cluz kte g cluz.. naseb badan... :( erm perangkaan masa depan tyme cuti adalah sperti berikut :

1st choice : keje receptionist kt kuwait finance, atas ehsan makcik sniri.. salary up to rm2000
2nd choice : cikgu kanak2 istimewa kt skolah rndh, atas ehsan abah sniri..salary +-rm1000
3rd choice : bkak tution cntre kt kg, salary xbnyk tp dpt tlg anak bngsa..hehe
4th choice : jadi suri rumah, memandangkan pngetahuan yg sgtlah cetek dlm bidang memasak, perlu melakukan kerahan tenaga tlg mak msk kt uma, jga anak2..anak2 AYAM okie :P

hurm...so kawan2..apa agaknya yg saye perlu lakukan??sila komen ye :)

hurm n attached here adalah gamba2 raye..sonok pulang ke kg smpai xsmpat nk study ape2..hmm TP XPE! yg pntg hati snang dpt bergumbira bsama kluarga..hehe AND yang pasti, stlah balik ke bandar bnyk roundbout pusing2 niii, perlukan kekuatan mental utk dpt result trial yg smemangnya NTAH PAPE bkn trial yg ntah pape, kemalasan diri ni yg menjadikan situasi ntah pape tu..huhu

ENJOY DA PICCAS :D

mak ngn abah shweeeet~ :)

sanak saudara tgh layan sifu tongga..hak3

snyum palsu bebeno.. :P

adi cumey dgn pak ngah

nabil + mak + kakak + adi cumey

upin dan ipin versi rmbut kerinting..hehe..ni anak2 buah saye okie :D

malam bbq..20 ekor ayam abes licin dlm skelip mata..

bufday kezen..

bila la nk blek kdah lg :(

hve a blessful day~

kpada sume kawan2, slamat hari raya diucapkan..
smoga rya taun ni sgt2 bmakna, esp to all bdk2 manipal..
hehe insyaAllah kta fly nex yer,
so diz will be da last hri rya kt msia..
so lets njoy it k~ nnt kta sebret rmai2 plak ye =)

AND, sorry 4 everything..
maafkan saye zahir n batin..
maaf tkasar bhasa tguris prasaan..
saye hnyalah insan yg lemah, tidak maksum tidak sempurna..
sntiasa cuba perbetulkan mna yg xkna :)

im writing diz while waiting 4 my makteh to come..
we r going back to kdah diz morning yipppeeeee~ :D
jemput la dtg uma ye kwn2 :))
hve a safe journey home k..
sayang awk2 sumeee~ (^^,)

zzzzzzz

waaa for the 1st tyme i left my blog for sooo long.
i thought of never returning again, but sumtimes, i do feel like writing sumting, r not my head will be flooded wif loads of unnecessary items. that's how i can go nuts at times :P
AND, im thinking of writing a private blog for myself, it maybe more convenient to write about private things in a private blog..hehe
but of coz, im gonna wait until A2 is over, cuz time is really crucial for me rite now.
i really feel the tense of doing a compressed version of A2 level, where things dat a student normally studies for a year or at lez half a year, need to be covered within 3months time, and its half of half a year! *goshhhh*
and proudly saying, i suc** my pre-A2 trial n now only i started to realize that my head is still sooo empty, when i only hve a month left b4 the real xm.
"ohhhhhh simple things where hve you gone..im getting old n i need sumting to rely on~" :((
lalalalalalalalala...really got no idea. dunno wut to do.
application chem n phy really make me feel like an idiot who need at lez 10x to understand a simple thing. yet, 10x is still not enough for me to get the idea of wut im reading :(
terok kan???

n plus, rya da dkat n I still dun hve anything to wear.
dah tawaf satu shah alam, but still couldnt find a nice one to wear.
huhu..im feeling down~ :(

any1 wif HELP???

im back~ :)

Akhirnya, stlah cuti yg agak pnjg, aku kmbali ke shah alam =)

wan Alhamdulillah da mkin chat, tp blum sdar spnuhnya.
n still perlukan bntuan pnafasan. InsyaAllah 2 3 ari lg da bole bgn n bcakap. amiin :)
thanks kpd suma yg bg smngt n tlg bca yassin n doa.
smoga Allah memberkati kalian sume :))

so,mcm2 pengalaman n pengajaran yg aku dpt spnjg kt kdah.
yg pasti, smngat aku utk jd doktor yg bjaye smakin bkobar2..
sedey kalo tgk keadaan kt hospital, kite kt luar hepi je, tp rmai org yg tgh tseksa n mderita kt dalam sane.
tmbah plak wan dlm icu, sume org yg dlm tu dlm keadaan kritikal n kronik, tiap2 ari ade je org mninggal.
spnjang aku kt hospital, ade 2org hamba Allah meninggal. dua2 kes h1n1, n mlibatkan pesakit kronik.
dlm emergency pnye unit plak, bratus2 org tgh tunggu giliran, sbb demam btuk2, simptom2 h1n1 la sume.
wabak ne da smakin truk nmpknye, nurse dlm icu tu ckp tiap2 ari ade je org yg sah +ve.
scary kan???

erm dlm icu, aku tgk la cmne doctor sume wat keje. ade sorg doc laki tu, die rawat wan.
dr wan mule2 msuk, die monitor every single pkembangan yg ade la.
so msa ari 1st tu, die ckp wan xde brain coordination. so, diorg takut brain dead sbb b4 dat wan kne stroke agak trok la.
den 2 3 ari pastu, kaki wan da mule gerak2. die hepi sgt2, die ckp kt tok 'maaaakkk ciiiiiiiiiiiiiiiikkk, tgk laaaaa pak cik dah gerakkkk2" dgn hepinye.
comel btol :) itu lah prasaan sorg doc bla tgk pesakit die smakin baik kan.
i cant wait to hve dat kind of feelings tu...hehe :)

n aku blaja satu je yg pntg utk jd doc yg bjaye, kte kna la ikhlas..
bkn sbb duit, bkn sbb nk uma r kete besa, tp btol2 sbb nk tolong org.
sume org kt hospital tu harapkan bntuan kta, so we hve to be very2 serious n wise in every dcision dat we hve to make.
ne soal hidup n mati org. soal nyawa yg mmg kta xbole bli dgn wang ringgit.
dan nk jadi doc, its all about sacrifice.
kalo xnak korbankan masa tdo, msa mkn, msa utk shopping n all dat,
itu bkn doc namenye.
mental n fizikal kne kuat. doc kt c2 jalan pon laju2.
mne ade lenggang2 kangkung.
satu saat tlambat, bnyk nyawa yg bole tgadai.

so for dat, marilah kawan2ku yg tgh wat medic, kta blaja bsungguh2.
ramai org yg tgh menunggu khidmat kta, so kta wat yg tbaek okie.
ikhlaskan diri nk blaja, jgn sentiasa crik kelemahan org.
sbb 1 jari tunjuk kt org, ade 4 lg jari yg tunjuk kt kta.
be +ve, be consistent, be motivated.
insyaAllah kta sume bole :))

p/s bnyk gle mende nk kna cover, after 4ari ponteng cluz...warrrggghhhh :(

(T_T)

God must have a reason for putting me in diz kind of situation.

aku demam, 2ari tlantar atas katil, tdo slama 40 jam bermimpikan result AS.

sok result AS kuar, im juz hoping 4 the bez. smoga budak2 jpa dpt buat 1st record yg baek.

huhu..takot sgt2, tp bnda da lpas kan.

bak kta maya "Dont cry bcoz its over, smile bcoz it happened" =)

n now, my grandpa msuk ICU, suspected lung infection.

n da 2ari xsdarkan diri T_T

siesly ni satu tamparan hebat dlm hidupku.

sbb wan da bsarkan aku dr kecik smpai skang ni.

he's been a great playmate of mine.

n i made so many promises to him.

to t8 cre of him when I bcome a doctor,

buy him lots of shoes so that he's not gonna wear a worn out shoes nemore,

bring him to India for a trip, when im studying there.

Can u wait for me, wan??? T_T

im praying for ur quick recovery okei??

I'll be back to kedah tonite. mum juz told me dat its appropriate to come back now.

as his condition is getting worse.

God, plzz save him for me :(

to ppl out there, diz is not a way for me to escape from classes okei??

im not hepy wif diz.

but i really have to, coz my grandpa is like my soul.

he raised me up, waited for me in front of the school's gate everyday after school,

in his old kain pelikat riding his old motorbikes.

juz to make sure that I learn ABC and 123

i dun need to forget all dat juz bcoz im an A level student aite?

im dying when he's struggling for a life.

coz i really really damn love him.

geddit??????

H1N1 pandemics~ :(

Shah Alam da jadi kwasan hitam sbb kes h1n1 yg smakin menular. huhu. takutnye bla dnga ade org2 terdekat yg da tkena pnyakit ni. ura2 plak msu da kna blacklist sbb ada org suspected positive h1n1. naseb baik btuk slsema sume da lega. kalo x silap2 haribulan terkena kuarantin skali la jwbnya. mmg la besh kalo dpt cuti sminggu. tp silibus bnyk lg nk kna abeskan. so better msu xtutup, r else extra cluz tiap2 minggu hri sbtu :(( kt msia da 3 org mati sbb pnyakit ni. rsa mcm xsafe sgt2. anytime bole tkna n rsa mcm bole ninggal ble2 msa je..huhuhu. smoga kta dijauhkan dr suma kesusahan n dpanjangkan umo~

"Health Minister Datuk Seri Liow Tiong Lai said the Malaysian man was reported to have died from severe pneumonia with multi-organ failure at 4.40pm on Monday after being treated for 10 days in a private hospital in Kuala Lumpur.

He said the victim had received oupatient treatments from several private clinics and hospitals since July 6 before being referred and admitted to the private hospital on July 18.

“In the ward, he was diagnosed to be suffering from diabetes mellitus and chest x-ray showed that he was also suffering from pneumonia,” he told reporters at the operations room at the Health Ministry here Tuesday.

Liow said the victim was transferred to the intensive care unit after having breathing difficulties and requiring ventilator.

He said when his condition deteriorated, a throat swab was taken on July 22 and he was confirmed to be H1N1 positive the following day.

“The swab was taken very late on July 22. Despite being in hospital, these three victims all died. They couldn’t be saved. Now we’ve found out that the treatment came to them very late. I’m very concerned.”

~THESTARONLINE

Ya Allah, jauhkanlah diriku, keluargaku dan rakan2ku dr ujian-Mu ini.

Kami berlindung di bawah pertolonganmu Ya Rabbi~

....Amin....

:(

smiling from ear to ear~ :))

hehe..its too complicated to be expressed by words.
juz let my smiles tell ya everything okei :))

thank u mr egypt, for all the magnificent gifts~ :D

mushroom diamond crystal. cntek sgt2 :D

baju pyramid..hehehe

my fevret spreading cheese~ :))

extra virgin olive oil to reduce risks of getting cardiovascular diseases..heeee

unta pdg pasir pooon adeee..hehe

n ne part yg plg touching..

PANCAKES! PANCAKES! PANCAKES!

lpas da lme terseksa tingin nk makan pancakes, akhirnya dpt jugak mkn..heee~
thank you so much for all these..
~dancing izyani~

:) :) :) :) :) :)






(*________*)

plzzz go away....

I dont know why...

I feel completely lazy

n rather uninspired...

:(

ohh my dear spirits,

where hve u gone???

plzz come back fast

im dying without uuuuu...

n mr laziness,

plzzz go far far away

ur such a devil

who turns me into a fatty

FATTY N LAZY YANIE~

huk3 :((

lazy bones syndrome perhaps???

:'(

BLOW~

After being recommended by ms amalina to watch this movie,

look at me now!

Im turning into....

A BIG NOT-SO-CRAZY FAN OF


~JOHNNY DEPP~

hihihi :) :)

Generally, the story was good. Lots of messages n values. N as usual, I've googled some of the memorable quotes in the story.


"Life passes most people by while they're making grand plans for it. Throughout my lifetime, I've left pieces of my heart here and there. And now, there's almost not enough to stay alive. But I force a smile, knowing that my ambition far exceeded my talent."


"Sometimes you're flush and sometimes you're bust, and when you're up, it's never as good as it seems, and when you're down, you never think you'll be up again, but life goes on."


"May the wind always be at your back, and the sun always upon your face, and may the wings of destiny carry you aloft to dance with the stars."


Beautiful aite?? :D

In this story, George (Johnny Depp) is a greedy man, he never satisfied wif what he has, always looking for more, so he becomes a drug dealer. Being sentenced to jail never meant anything to him, in fact jail is a place for him to learn how to be a better drug dealer from the other prisoners. His father keeps reminding him that money isnt real, but he failed to understand what his father is trying to say, until he was caught for the 4th time, and being jailed for 60 years.

Yup its true dat money isnt real. We can buy big cars, massive houses, pretty clothes so on n so forth if we have money. But even if we possess an infinite amount of money, we cannot purchase any of these priceless items : LOVE>CARE>LIFE> These are the things that we can only get from being a neutral human being, not so greedy yet not so depending on fate to change everything. In the end, George regrets for what he had done, n he wished to have more time to be spent wif his family, but its too late.

moral of the story ~ always be grateful. think carefully before attempting to do anything illegal okei :)

Thumbs up! credits to johnny depp! :) :)

(*__________*)

hooorayyy!!

Its weekends~~~~~
n weekends mean sleep~!!!! (tade kene mengene pon :P) heeeheee :D
Its been a hectic week for me. Damn exhausted. P3 maths really turns me into a zombie n drives me crazy. Kpale bpusing2 atas bawah, kiri kanan, depan blakang, 360 degrees juz to answer one vector question. n queuing up in the things-to-study list; complex no, trigo, rational function etc. tu bru maths, blom lg physics, bio n chem. omg its more than horror i shud say, in fact its kinda supernatural thingy dat makes me shout and laugh with no reasons, dgn tiba2 saje. tp saye masih siuman okei :D

Power spec pon da naek sbb bnyk sgt blink2 time wat maths..hihohi
pdahal sbb bnyk sgt tgk laptop :P power da naik jd 200 sob3, wan yg da 70taun tu mata orait lg jeeee...huhu sdeynyeee :( nnt da tua kne pkai spec tbal la alamatnyeeeee..hmmm

tolak mkn tdo sume, tngl lbey kurg 2 months je b4 the nitemare comes. n lg sbulan rsult AS kuar...0ooooo aaaaa eeee uuuu iiiiiii saye xsanggup nk ambik rezut itteww.... tanak kne repeat, plzzzzz3..A2 pon tkapai2, cmne nk study balik AS...xsanggup2 :((
ohhh God, plzzz make everything easy for me. I dun want to make any1 disappointed, especially mak n abah. That's where my future lies on. Hope it will be good.
AMIN~

Alrite, enough about dat. allergic bla sebut psal result AS. tanak ckp da..ckup3!

lets talk bout sumting more interesting..heeeeee~
diz weekend nk watpe??? of coz la, nk charge balik battery yg da abes. hehe! saye lah lazy garfield yg bjaye! :P tdo je keje. ish3 npe la tdo tu indah sgt. hahaha salahkan tdo plak, pdahal diri tu yg malas. tp diz weekend dah kna booked ngn aunty lily la plak. aunty lily is my bosh tyme keje kt Ambank dlu. sgt2 baek, n bole kata rapat la ngn die. bru2 ni org gaji die wat hal, ade ke patut org sro keje die bwk laki plak msuk uma. tom2 da pregnant. haish tgk je baik n innocent gle tp prangai cam hantu. syian kt baby yg xbsalah dlm prot tuuu sob3 :( kpada kwn2 sume, jgn la pcaye kt org gaji anda. dlm parit pon bole ade buaye taw..hihihi tipu3 :p so weekend ni kne temankan die kt uma, tp xpe, asalkan dpt mkn sdap2 n yg pntg free n tdo kt atas katil empuk n bole tgk astro free sude~dr naufal sgt anti org yg ske ckp 'sude', tp nk jugak ckp walaupun penggunaan xkne tmpt ..
hehe! :p

ohhhh lupe plak. dgn tibe2 rini ms amalina announce ielts speaking test will be on friday, 7th august. adoyaiiiii ble msa plak la nk prepare utk ielts. huhuhu. da lame xckp org puteh, lidah pon da keras jdnyer. at diz moment, i really mish debate~ knape kt msu tade debate :((

xpe!
i can do it.. i can do it.. go yanie go! :p

hehe..alrite till now, perlu spend time dgn buku sketika sbb die da majok lme xbkak die teheheee~
tlg la wat solat hajat bg aku rajin sket k. sgt2 memerlukan elemen kerajinan buat msa ini.

hve a fabulous weekend sume~ :D

wajar ke x??

td aku jumpe blog sorg bdk medic ni.
die study 17jam sehari, tdo 4 jam stengah je.
tiba2 terfikir, mmg cmni ke hidup bdk medic??
gile ke haaa nk study smpai 17jam shari.
2 3 jam pon da senget kpale..huhuhuhu
wajarkah aku jd cmtu??


bpe jam je utk mandi....

bpe jam je utk shopping...

bpe jam je nk cangak dpn laptop...

bpe jam utk mkn, tu pon smbil study...

bpe jam je utk tgk tv...

nak tempek bedak sjuk kt muka pon xsmpat...

nak mbuang pon kne bpada2...

adehhh..mmg cmni ke life bdk medic haaa???

aku perlu lebih menghargai :)

This post is dedicated to my old friend, syaffiqa ruzlan a.k.a pika pong pong~ :D

seorang wanita kental yg sgt tegar mhadapi onak duri khidupan

(niat d hati dlu nk jd sasterawan negara, tp xksampaian, so ini la impaknya :P)

hahaha..kk back to the main point. lepas menyelami blog si pika pong2 ni, bnyk soalan2 yg terlintas di fkiranku. knapa org laen bole tp aku xbole? knapa aku lemah bla org laen kuat? knapa susah sgt aku nk bdepan dgn cubaan sdgkan ada org yg lagi teruk kondisinya dr aku?

dan akhirnya aku temui jawapan kpd suma persoalan2 tu :

AKU PERLU LEBIH MENGHARGAI

knapa? sbb bila kta xmenghargai sesuatu yg wujud secara lgsung atau xlgsung dlm hidup ni, automatically kita xkan blaja menyayangi dan mensyukuri. tp bla kta menghargai, kita akan lebih menerima apa yg ada kt sekeliling kta. bersyukur, dats the most important thing of all. ada org yg lg snang drpd kta, so kta pun mengeluh, knapa la dia tu mewah sgt, cantik sgt bla3.. tp kita xsdar, ada lg org yg xmampu n kurang sempurna, yg lg susa drpd kta. kta xnmpk keindahan yg ada dlm diri kta, walhal mmg Allah dah ciptakan sume bnda tu indah.

n i found diz dlm blog pika pong2
"Izyani(Classmate ku..tyme2 males nk study bkk la blog die..sbb inspiring..suke ngan attitude die hoho...nk jd cam die)"

n i was thinking, aku rasa cm aku la mnusia plg truk dlm dunia ni, dgn sikap mazmumah yg bkilo2 n beraneka variasi, i kept hating myself for who i am. tp behind all that, Alhamdulillah, ada jugak org yg nmpk the good side dlm diri aku, even aku xpenah nmpk. itulah mksudnya, aku perlu lebih bsyukur :))

alrite, talking bout pika pong2, i still remember during school time dkt badlishah, where we used to be in the same class from form 1 to form 3. frankly speaking pika pong2 is one of my biggest enemies, bcause she's so intelligent n we were fighting like crazy to be in the top rank. None of us really berterus- terang about the silent battle that we were having, n it happened very quietly n peacefully haha! and den msuk form 4, both of us were offered to different boarding schools, so we rarely met each other but everytime i met her schoolmates n i asked bout pika pong2, they kept telling that she's a genius wif a powerful brainy. n I? my result was getting worse since i went to saina. :(( n i took it as a challenge, y other ppl can but i cant? there must be sumting within myself that need to be fixed aite.

n now, here I am, in a place called MSU...my life isnt so good here, but aku perlu lebih bsyukur okey :)

n msuk je form 4, i received a bad news from my fren, telling dat mama tersayang pika da kmbali pdNya. accident msa otw balik dr keje n she went back earlier on dat day to clbrate bufday pika. n i heard dat they found Al-Quran inside the car, as a bufday present to her. sory pika if diz is too detail r tlah ditokok tmbah :) what a scene aite. n i kept putting myself in her situation, if n only if im the one who is facing the agony, i would have done something improper i tink. but she looked so calm n strong when i met her after the funeral. she is a woman wif a big heart, really. she really inspired me to be more independent n sabar nk bdepan dgn sumting yg sgt susah. n sbgai anak sulung dlm family, she is responsible to take a good care of the rest of her siblings, n i know she would be the best sis to them. she even chose to study locally when she has a good potential to study abroad, juz to take care of her siblings.

ur such a good person, pika. mybe we can fight in our studies, but not to determine sape lg pnyabar, baik ati, kuat smngat n all dat, bcoz definitely u'll be the winner.
but after all, ur a good example dat i shud follow :))

http://ummatanwasatha.blogspot.com (nk promote xpe kan pika??hehe!)

dalam mimpiku~

3.37 am

Bru bgn dr tdo pas dpt mimpi yg mengingatkan aku bhw hidup kt dunia ni xlma, n pintu taubat sntiasa tbuka, slagi nyawa xkluar dr halqum. huhu. slalu sgt dpt mimpi cmni. Allah tu Maha Penyayang kan, maybe sbb kdg2 kita tlupa, so Dia ingatkan kita.

Dalam mimpi tu, aku dpt taw yg aku ada pnyakit, n ada beberapa saat ja lg utk idup. cepat2 aku carik mak, abah n adik bradik utk mintak maaf. aku peluk, aku cium diorg smbil nanges2. time tu aku nyesal sbb xbnyk buat kebaikan masa hidup, n bila da xsempat bru rasa cm erghhhhh~

den aku pesan kt sume, slalu la mntak doa kt Allah, bg pnjg umo n sihat tubuh badan, sbb aku dulu jrg buat cmtu, sbb tu umo aku xbpe pnjg. huhu. mak ckp dia akan doakan aku hari2. abah snyap je, tkejut n sedih. pastu roh aku pon kuar.

pastu aku terjaga, syukur sgt2, sbb tu mimpi je. sries rsa cm mati hdup balik. at least aku taw pintu taubat blum tutup lg. takut mengenangkan dosa yg bnyk gler. huhu. hakikatnya hidup time A level ni, hari2 bgn pagi bkn fikir cmne nk tingkatkan iman, bsedia nk hadapi kematian, tp pk psal assignmnent, homework, exam. n pk psal bnda remeh yg buat aku xbsyukur dgn apa yg aku dpt. nk itu, nk ini. seolah2 nk hdup kt dunia ni slama2nya, mcm mati tu xkan dtg. padahal mati tu bole dtg bla2 msa je.

Ya Allah, ampunkan dosa2 ku. Matikanlah aku dlm iman. :(

~Amin~

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